Ashlee Simpson on SNL Lip-Syncing Scandal, Backlash

If you want Ashlee Simpson‘s autobiography, just ask her.

The Ashlee Simpson Show alum reflected on the intense publish backlash she received after being caught lip-syncing while performing on Saturday Night Live back in 2004, when her hit “Pieces of Me”—which she had already sang that night—mistakenly started playing before she even started singing her second song, which was supposed to be “Autobiography.”

“I think it’s a different era,” Ashlee reflected on the Aug. 21 episode of Pod Meets World. “I think during that time, I mean, the bullying was insane.”

The 40-year-old went on to explain how the controversy has affected her over the past 20 years, leaving her to feel as if she has to constantly explain herself.

“But then my whole life, I had to tell people, ‘Oh, but I perform every night,'” Ashlee shared. “My fans know. I had to know that in my heart.”

And that habit in and of itself had her asking herself, “What am I trying to tell people?”